Hanna
02-01-2005, 02:43 AM
Hi Buddies!
I am happy and excited to be soooo close to goal!! Only a few pounds to go!!! Yay me! LOL!
I have been thinking alot on what it really was that happened to me when WW stopped being a struggle, and turned into a way of life. Sure I still have my occational whining, I want to eat what she is having, why do I have to be on WW? -sessions, but I really don't feel that this is so hard anymore.
When I started out, every day was a struggle. Staying within my points felt almost impossible. Earning APs felt like a chore. Drinking water was disgusting. The buddies that were here when I first joined might remember my whining....
Like I have told you before, I have been on antidepressants and in therapy for depression almost exactly as long as I have been a Bootcamp Buddy. I came off the meds in October 2003, and have been out of therapy since december. (Still feeling wobbly about not having my therapist around as often...) When I stopped taking the meds, my world started to spin faster. I gained weight. I felt that it was natural, since the meds were affecting my serotonin levels, and they have to do with over eating etc. And maybe it was. But last spring or early summer I had an epiphany. I didn't have to gain weight. WW didn't have to be hard. I just had to make up my mind to really do this. I decided to enjoy my journey. I actually, honestly, decided not to care about the scales. I started to focus on my journey.
Does it sound to easy? Well it did take me several years of thinking to get there... I am not fast, but I am stubborn...
How do I focus on my journey?
I measure my success in my journal. That is, I celebrate the success of every OP day. I don't count tham, I just allow myself to be proud of myself for being OP. The scales may say up or down, maintain or disaster, but I KNOW that I am a success, since I am OP.
Focussing on the process is a well known strategy in production industry, where one aspect is to do things right, and the outcome will be right. And it really works in real life!! (Hey, it's not often engineering is appliccable to reality ;) ) By focussing on what I DO rather than on what the outcome is, I have lost better than ever. Sure, I'm slow, but hey, give my poor body a break! It has already lost over 80 pounds!! After some time, this way of thinking has become a part of me. It's liberating. I do my best, and that is good enough.
I often see sad posts about not losing enough, or losing too slow, or why did I maintain, I stayed perfectly OP , all valid questions, and all questions I have asked. My best advice in every aspect of this weight loss journey is focus on the process and make a decision to enjoy it, and we will all be great successes.
I'm having a great OP day, so I already am.
:bcbsalute :buddysmoo
Hanna
I am happy and excited to be soooo close to goal!! Only a few pounds to go!!! Yay me! LOL!
I have been thinking alot on what it really was that happened to me when WW stopped being a struggle, and turned into a way of life. Sure I still have my occational whining, I want to eat what she is having, why do I have to be on WW? -sessions, but I really don't feel that this is so hard anymore.
When I started out, every day was a struggle. Staying within my points felt almost impossible. Earning APs felt like a chore. Drinking water was disgusting. The buddies that were here when I first joined might remember my whining....
Like I have told you before, I have been on antidepressants and in therapy for depression almost exactly as long as I have been a Bootcamp Buddy. I came off the meds in October 2003, and have been out of therapy since december. (Still feeling wobbly about not having my therapist around as often...) When I stopped taking the meds, my world started to spin faster. I gained weight. I felt that it was natural, since the meds were affecting my serotonin levels, and they have to do with over eating etc. And maybe it was. But last spring or early summer I had an epiphany. I didn't have to gain weight. WW didn't have to be hard. I just had to make up my mind to really do this. I decided to enjoy my journey. I actually, honestly, decided not to care about the scales. I started to focus on my journey.
Does it sound to easy? Well it did take me several years of thinking to get there... I am not fast, but I am stubborn...
How do I focus on my journey?
I measure my success in my journal. That is, I celebrate the success of every OP day. I don't count tham, I just allow myself to be proud of myself for being OP. The scales may say up or down, maintain or disaster, but I KNOW that I am a success, since I am OP.
Focussing on the process is a well known strategy in production industry, where one aspect is to do things right, and the outcome will be right. And it really works in real life!! (Hey, it's not often engineering is appliccable to reality ;) ) By focussing on what I DO rather than on what the outcome is, I have lost better than ever. Sure, I'm slow, but hey, give my poor body a break! It has already lost over 80 pounds!! After some time, this way of thinking has become a part of me. It's liberating. I do my best, and that is good enough.
I often see sad posts about not losing enough, or losing too slow, or why did I maintain, I stayed perfectly OP , all valid questions, and all questions I have asked. My best advice in every aspect of this weight loss journey is focus on the process and make a decision to enjoy it, and we will all be great successes.
I'm having a great OP day, so I already am.
:bcbsalute :buddysmoo
Hanna