Need some help

[Alliruetwo]

Buddies. Tomorrow will make 2 years since my Dad passed on graemlins/sobbing.gif This was a very sudden and unexpected event in all our lives, and as the oldest of three, I was the rock that held my Mom and two sisters together the entire week following his death. Now 2 years later, I still mourn him every day. The past week or two I have been very weepy. The help I am asking for involves tomorrow. Please pray for me, that I will be able to function at work without breaking down, and that I will be able to call my Mom tomorrow nite, and be an encouragement to her. Thanks everyone, I treasure you all.

[DebbieBar]

Your in my prayers.

[lismith]

Your in my prayers also.

Laura

[peacelily]

Hi Allison, I'm so sorry you lost your dad ... in fact, I'm even more sorry that you lost him unexpectedly! It's always hard enough losing them period, but to not be given an opportunity to say good bye or have time to work through it before their gone, is awful.
I lost my dad two weeks before my 13th birthday, he was killed on the job so we never got a chance to say good-bye ... he was crushed to death so we never got to see his body or I mean his remains ... I think in the back of my head I always wondered if it was really him in the coffin or if he had faked his death & had really run away from us? graemlins/ugh.gif Growing up I use to hear my parent's fight all the time so some how I thought just maybe he took off on us & faked us out :rolleyes: I use to look for him everywhere, looking into men's faces [that had similar appearances] & if I smelt tobacco smoke like his I'd rush around until I could find the person just to make sure it wasn't him ... I was a pretty mixed up kid. :( I actually think I did this until I was into my late teens & should I admit how much my DH reminds me of him? :eek: LOL Only DH is my night in shining armor: "a good & perfect gift from my Heavenly Father"! But that's another story! ;)
Anyway, to finish this story ... 4 years ago my mother passed away [one year after I got married]. She had lung cancer and of the ten months the doctors gave us for her to live, she died in three. She refused to fight for this life [wanting to be with the Lord] ... it was the hardest thing for me to go through & yet God carried me, & continues to carry me. He gave me a good husband & Faith to believe ... & I will trust God to carry you as He has me ... I couldn't have gone through half the stuff I've been through if God hadn't given me more then enough Faith & Grace! Allison, He can carry you too! But don't be hard on yourself or your family, some times we need to weep with those that weep ... part of the healing process is to mourn ... there's no set time limit for when it has to stop hurting or when a person should stop crying ... I mean some cry a little longer then others, while to some God brings healing right away ... I find myself rejoicing at times [that my Mom's with the Lord] & seldom do I cry over her, but it still hit's me every now & then & I just have to let the tears flow ... because I have Faith I can let go of it better then the rest of my family [I don't grieve as others do] ... like my sister & niece [whom my Mother raised] can't seem to enter into the place of peace & acceptance like God's given me & so when they call me I'm more sentimental & cry with them ... which feels good to me becuz I know I really do still miss her [even if I have been given a sanctuary/a hiding place, or haven of rest/place of peace]. Does this make sense?
Anyway, my thoughts are with you today & I will hold you & your family up in prayer...

I'm sorry this got so long Allison, I guess I was so moved by your situation I felt a need to share more then I probably should have, sorry graemlins/ugh.gif ...

[ September 23, 2003, 05:35 PM: Message edited by: peacelily ]

[Mamaw6]

I'm praying for you too, Allison.

Love in Christ
Brenda

[Alliruetwo]

Thank you, all of you, for your support. I am going to do my best to face the day and the challenges it will bring me. Knowing that your prayers are behind me, and that God is with me, is giving me great peace.

[peggrimsley]

Hi Allison!! graemlins/wave.gif

I'm sorry I'm a day late in seeing this post and responding!!

I hope and pray that Wednesday went well for you and that God comforted you and blessed you in a special way!! ;)

I'll continue to pray for you and your family this week as you continue to mourn...

love, hugs,
& blessings,
peggy :D