Bootcamp Fighters, Monday 2/13/06.........

[Jannie]

Good Morning, Fighters.

It is a mighty cold morning here. DH is on his way to work and I am worried because of all the black ice out there this morning. He keeps saying he will be fine but, I worry about the drivers who drive to fast for these road conditions.

The kiddos are home today. So, we will go out and play in a little while. DD wants to get to use her sled and DS has to play football with the boys in the snow. It's so funny when the weather is warm, I have to throw them out of the house. When it's cold and I want to stay in they can't wait to get out.

I don't think I will get out to go to my WW meeting this morning. I don't want to take any chances with the kiddos on the black ice this morning. So, I joined over three weeks ago and have not been able to weigh-in yet. I hope I can next week before they drop me. I have been doing ok OP wise. I have not been able to get in all my points daily.

I hope everyone has a great OP day. I will check in later.

[Sandy P. 53]

Good Morning Jannie and all who follow!

Could someone please tell me why the week-ends fly by, Monday mornings come much too soon and it is time to go to work again. We have had about 4" of the unmentionable and it is falling so softly now, that it is like a picture postcard. On another front, the bathroom is almost done...I worked in there until 9PM last evening and all I have left to do is repaint the radiator/vent/whatever that thing on the wall is called. When I do get it all done, I will try to take a picture and show you all my "Rubber Ducky" bathroom.
It sure was quiet on this thread this week-end. I hope everyone is prepared for tomorrow....it is a very stressful day for me, but I will concentrate on things other than the "C" word and maybe make it through safe and sound. It will be a real challenge to my OP'ness. So far, I am on Day 11....a milestone for me, I am sure. I wonder what I will do after the bathroom is done to get my AP points in a way that doesn't seem like exercise to me?:exercise: Well, I gotta go to work now, hope everyone here has a great day and I will check with you later, if I can.

[theinnerme]

Good Morning Jannie and Monday fighters to follow,

We are basting in a warm 2 degrees but we didn't get any of that other stuff so I am still smiling. Today begins another week and I am hoping for a good week with everything including weight. I want to shed some worry pounds too, if I can change my eating habits I think it is time to shed some fear habits. This board has taught me some valuable lessons and I am ready to try them out. Life is too short to fear everything like I sometimes do.

Jannie- one aspect I will never let go is when my loved ones are on the road. I hear ya about other drivers, it is that factor I worry about. I sometimes try to remember my child hood love of snow but for the life of me I can't. My kids just love it, a trait they must have got from the father! Enjoy your day!

Selma- hope you can get to WI. How are the swans doing?

Sandy- here's to another strong week! :strong:

Lori- how are you doing? Haven't heard from you in awhile, hope all is well.

Karen- glad to have you back among us.

Allison- how was your weekend?

Barb- still praying for your Mom and you.

Suzi- have a good strong day.

Penny- will be praying for your son's surgery to go well.

to all the rest, stay strong.

Linda

[SUCKERS]

good Morning Jannie, Sandy, Linda and fellow fighters,

Lets just say Friday morning started my weekend off to a horrible, stressful start. The rest of the weekend was just busy, busy, busy. I did sign my DD up for driving classes so now for the next 5 weeks I will have to be completely on top of things as the class is 30-45 minutes away and 3 days a week. Its the closest. While she is at the class I will go and chill at my mom and dads and visit. I will enjoy this since I don't get to see them as often as I like. I have to cut the roast this morning for Italian Beefs for dinner so I better get going. I have to be in early for work and don't want to see anyone in the office there. They are not nice people and being a pastor and employees of a church I have a hard time dealing with it. Oh well I will just not go to the office unless I absoutely have to.
I need to start journaling better as I have let that fall to the side a few days this week. I know better.

I hope everyone has a great OP day!

Jannie, enjoy the day with the kids. I wish I had a day home with them. But I wouldn't want the unmentionable right now.

Sandy, Great job on 10 days! You are doing awesome!!! Keep up the great job. I'm glad the bathroom is done.

Linda, I bet your DD had a smile going ear to ear when she got her medal. Stay warm today. I have to kick myself to get back and journal properly.

Barb, I am praying for your mom. Stay strong friend.

Lori :crazy:

[Lulie]

Hey fighters. :wave:

It's been a rough few days, eating-wise. I'm in some sort of hormonal flux that's making me a crazy PMS monster all the time. I just want to eat everything I see. :ugh:

I was going to make some soup for lunches this week, but I never got around to it. Our house is such a wreck, it depresses me to be there and I don't want to do anything.

I'm hoping to reach my 10% goal by my next WI, but first I have to get out of this funk. :ugh:

Have a good OP day buddies.

[Shana1]

Good morning, fighters.

I've been busy playing with Forrest this a.m. Elaine got him up early for school before we told her there was a 2 hr. delay. We got l6" of the "you know what" and the swans are still alive and swimming around in the rapidly shrinking unfrozen section of the pond. There's no WW meeting but today is my day out with Elaine. We are going for an early lunch and to see "Brokeback Mountain". Forrest will walk home and be with Grandpa.

Jannie, I'm sure the kids will enjoy the snow. I'd tell you not to worry about DH, but I know how I am.

Sandy, I'm glad the bathroom is almost done. I can't wait to see a picture. Here's to day 11 OP. That's great.

Linda, we expend so much energy worrying about things that never come to pass. Changing that pattern is very hard, but it can be done. I'm still near hysteria when Elaine is out driving in bad weather. We are smart enough to stay home, but she just keeps rolling along. What can you do?

Lori, I'm glad you checked in. I'm sorry the job is so stressful. I hope you get back to journaling. I know it will help you.

Karen, I was so glad you posted yesterday. I was really worried about your health. Your project is almost over and you are getting back to work, so maybe everything will be back to normal soon. Don't disappear again, please.

Barb, I hope your mom is doing better today. I'm keeping you all in my thoughts.

[suzie_lightning]

Good morning Fighters,

Something is really bothering me and I think this is the right place to share it. I am going to Los Angeles for a conference at the end of March. I grew up near there (Huntington Beach), and three sets of uncles & aunts and most my cousins on my dad's side still live there. I grew up with all of them within a 3-mile radius of my home, and we are a close-knit family.

I have mixed feelings about visiting them. On the one hand, I know I "should." My parents expect it, and if my relatives found out I was in the area and I didn't visit, they would be very hurt. My coming would be a big deal -- many of my uncles and aunts are older and very sick (dialysis, arthristis, spinal disease, kidney replacement, you name it) and spend their weeks running from doctor to doctor. This would be really nice for them. Plus, I never know when I'm going to get out there, and here is a great opportunity.

The problem is my weight. When I saw them last, I was about 15 pounds lighter than I am now. And they will notice. And they will comment. My whole dad's side of the family is extremely overweight and obese, especially my cousins. It is a constant topic of discussion in my family: oh, she gained weight, oh I don't understand how she got so fat, oh, she'll never get married if she doesn't lose that weight. For the most part, they are very unkind about this issue. Very unkind. This is how I got to be so self-conscious and shy in the first place. When I was younger (say, 10), they would pinch my stomach flab and say, "if you don't watch out, you'll turn out like (name of biggest cousin here)." Obviously, this felt awful. This is also the thing they talk about the most. Forget that this will be the first time I've seen them after I got my Ph.D., which they are all proud about. Forget that I have moved to Chicago, and have interesting things to say about the city. Forget that I want to hear about how they're doing and stories from the past. Forget I want to hear about my cousins' kids and everything they're doing. It's all about the fat (and marriage, but we won't go into that).

Now, I know what I need to do. I need to be proud that I am committed to my health and working to get these 15 pounds off. I need to say (figuratively) screw you if you're going to have that attitude (not in a disrespectful way, you know what I mean?). I need to NOT CARE about what other people think and just be myself and accept my struggles and celebrate the successes I still have. I am telling myself this over and over, but I can't quite bring myself to buy the plane ticket yet. I think I might need some encouragement.

(((Karen))), good to see you. I'm glad you are on the up-and-up. Please don't stop posting.

(((Barb))), I am thinking of your mom & your family. I am hoping for some good news.

Thanks for listening to my rants, buddies. I know I am the youngest one here on the Fighters and sometimes, when I post things like this, that is so painfully clear. I count on all my buddies' life wisdom to pull me through.
:buddysmoo

[kodysgramma]

Good Morning Fellow Fighters,

Well, it is Monday again. The only good thing about this monday is that the schools decided on a 1 hour delay (due to the weekend unmentionable) and that gave me an extra 30 mins of sleep this morning. I will also be leaving work early today yipeeeeeeeeee, I was supposed to have a dentist appt, but they re-scheduled, since I already asked for the time off, I am going to take it anyway.

OP wise things are going well, went to Curves on Friday and will be going tonite as well. Tonite is my last nite of someone watching me the whole time, and then I can come and go as I please. I have to say, I am enjoying it alot more than I thought I would. I feel good when the workout is finished, and I know that I have done something to benefit my health.

Nothing new on the job front. My Boss is still looney and I have not gotten ONE nibble on a resume yet. I will keep trying though, my goal is to have a new job by the end of the month and that is only two weeks away.

I will be back at lunch for personals, as BOSS is arriving.

Have a good one buddies, day #11!!!!

[Shana1]

Suzie, I can sympathize with you. However, as the oldest fighter here to the youngest----you are a big girl now. You have a P.H.D., for gosh sake. Hold your head up high, and, if anyone dares mention your weight, say "I'd much rather talk about what's going on with you and the kids, etc., etc. If they persist, don't participate in the conversation. I think they will give up. Don't let your family dictate your actions. Go to L.A., visit the family if you choose and be proud of yourself and your accomplishments.

Allison, the day you leave this job you should celebrate your new life. I can't imagine a worse work place. Your boss is certifiable and I'm surprised he hasn't been disbarred by now. Keep looking and stay OP. You are strong and can do this. I'm so glad you are enjoying Curves.

[suzie_lightning]

Thanks, Selma. Sometimes I feel so silly writing about this stuff. Then I remember that when I don't talk about it, I eat. So this is a much better option, plus the added benefit of good advice. You are right -- I don't have to participate in any conversation I don't choose to. This will be good assertiveness practice. I will play on my strengths (humor) to change the subject and be proud of who I am.

[Shana1]

Suzie, I'm so proud of you. (((hugs))).

[The Rollercoaster Stops Here]

Good Morning Fighters........

A cloudy cool day here in the "true north strong and free". I don't mind, provided we don't get any of the "unmentionable" that many of my fellow fighters are now having to cope with. I see by the end of the week, we are to be up to 10C (50F). I just hope it continues to be a mild winter on the whole, with only a few flakes of the "unmentionable".

My neck is feeling rough today. It's definitely not as good as it was before the weekend. I guess I will continue to have my ups and downs during recovery. I will be taking it very easy today. I will probably just sort through my freezer, and throw out any stuff that looks like if its been touched by freezer burn. Afterall..........its been 3 months since I've done any cooking of sorts. I may get something going in the crockpot. If I do just a little cooking every day, I can get a base supply of prepped foods in my freezer :D .

Jannie.........Enjoy your time playing in the snow with your kids. I guess there has to be one good thing about the snow !!! Right ???

Sandy........well done on the completing your bathroom. You must be so proud !!!! And Day 11 OP !!!! Way to go !!!! Stay strong ........

Linda..........I hear you re: the worry pounds. I follow in my mom's footsteps re: worrying about the littlest thing. A friend gave me the book.......'Don't Sweat the Small Stuff ' several years ago. I guess I should actually take some time to read it

Lori........I'm sorry your weekend was so busy. Sounds like you need a little "me" time.

Lulie..........I hear ya on "the house being such a wreck and not wanting to do anything". After almost 3 months of upset with the redecorating, I'm tired.......and don't want to do anymore !!!!! Unfortunately this is when I can't stop !!!! (I'm famous for leaving projects unfinished !!!!)

Selma......enjoy your afternoon out with Elaine. Move carefully in all that snow !!!!

Suzie........I hear ya on visiting relatives and not feeling the best you could be........re: weight. I haven't seen many of my relatives for years. I shut myself off, all because of "how I felt about the way I looked". Now to be quite honest........there were some relatives I did not miss seeing. But then there were those I did regret not seeing. Unfortunately I realized that too late......... For example, when my favourite uncle died. Life is too short to miss those opportunities to be with family when they come our way. Just a thought......

Allison.........Well done on your committment to CURVES !!!! I'll keep my fingers crossed that you get some "nibbles" to the resume`s you have sent out.

Well, I better actually do something !!!!!

TTFN

Karen

[BarbA]

I'll come back and do personals a bit later.

i ate BK before heading in to work. LU is packed. They have an "impromptu" catered lunch today. i know i should avoid it like the plague, because i feel so darn weak right now. Last night i was snacking on trail mix ... i could have chosen worse food, but shouldn't have eaten any. So i've restarted bad habits and didn't eat dinner, because i was snacking. So today maybe i'll just hole up in my office and work. i did get on the gazelle (half heartedly and certainly not burning as many APs as usual) for about 20 minutes last night.

They had to give mom more meds, and increase her vent settings again. Her temp is still elevated, but all the cultures are coming back negative. i lost it in her room and started crying when the hospital chaplains came in. This is just going to be such a long drawn out thing ... and it hurts so much seeing her like that, so vulnerable

[kodysgramma]

Lunch time, and time for some personals:

BarbA: ******}}} I don't even know what to say. You and your mom are in my thoughts and prayers right now. Stay :strong:

Jannie: My DS2 is the same way, he was outside almost ALL day yesterday, now, if only he would want to do that while the weather was warmer. Enjoy your day with with DC!!

Sandy: Here's to a great day #11!!!!!!! stay :strong: my friend.

Linda: WOW, 2 degrees?????? I think you win the prize for today :crazy:

Lori: Driving lessons, huh? I am soooo glad I have another 3 years before my last one gets to that point. I have found a new sense of accountability with my journaling lately. It has really helped me to see both the good and bad trends. I know you can do this Lori,:D

Luli: Welcome to the fighters. I know how you feel re: house being a wreck. I feel that way most of the time, but, I have found that as long as I have ONE area in my home that is organized, straight, clean, etc. I feel alot better about the rest. That one room? My bedroom. At least then I know if all else is chaos, I can retreat there with the tv or a good book and leave the rest behind me.

Selma: I am glad the swans are still there, surely that MUST be a sign that spring is really around the corner???? Enjoy your time with Forest

Suzie: I understand your feelings about your family. I, too, and facing a trip 'home' to visit my mom and sisters this coming weekend. I have to agree with Selma in this, do what you can to stear the conversation away from yourself and if that doesn't work, just politly say, "I really do not want to discuss it right now, it is a personal issue, and I am dealing with it my own way"

Karen: It is soooo good to see you back here. I am sorry that your renovations have gone on alot longer than you expected, but, just think about how wonderful everything will look when you hae finished. Now that your kitchen is getting back to normal, no more excuses, time to check in with us daily and let us know how it is going :bcbsalute


Just a little work update for all of you. I obviously need to get a crystal ball, does anyone know where I can get one? About an hour ago, BOSS came out of his cave (office) and actually looked at his messages. After I picked myself up off the floor, I explained that the one woman had called three times about todays court appearance. He asked, had she paid the fee, and I answered yes, late on friday. His response, "well, if she paid the fee, then of course she won't have to go to court. I told here that as long as it was paid, I would get a continuance." I then explained that I had no way of knowing any of this information, as he never explained the situation to me. His response? "Well, you JUST should have known" Hence my need for a crystal ball. If you see one on ebay let me know :crazy:

[kodysgramma]

Okay everyone, you have done it!!!! All your good thoughts, vibes and prayers have paid off, well sort of. I HAVE A JOB INTERVIEW IN THE MORNING!!!!!!!!!!!! This woman has been trying to get in touch with me for a week, I returned her calls twice last week and thought she was no longer interested. I can't wipe the silly grin off my face right now :D . Thanks buddies for your support, both with WW and with this horrible job situation. Maybe I am finally going to be able to move on.

[Shana1]

Hello, fighters. I'm back to report on my afternoon out. It was so nice to have a chance to sit and talk with Elaine without a lot of interruptions. We had a nice brunch dish--a veggie quesidillia. (sp) It had scrambled egg and lots of veggies in it with cheese. I ate 1/2 and none of the potatoes. I brought the rest home for DH tomorrow. We then went to see 'Brokeback Mountain, a very touching movie with excellent acting, but depressing. It was still a good choice since we both wanted to see it and we were not disappointed in the least.

Karen, take it easy. You need to heal.

Yeah, Allison. I knew you'd get a nibble at some point.

Barb, I don't know what to say to you. I'm so sorry things are not going well for your mom.

[The Rollercoaster Stops Here]

Good Afternoon Fighters.......

I've done very little today, as my neck is feeling worse and worse. I think I overdid things when my dear SIL came to visit on the weekend. :ugh: As a result, I've spent much of the afternoon laying in bed with a cold pack on my neck.

Selma......I'm taking your advice and laying low !!!! I've even had to start taking pain medication again; something which I managed to avoid on the weekend. I'm glad you enjoyed your afternoon out with Elaine.

Allison.......I'm so glad you have an interview ahead of you !!!! :D I'll keep my fingers and toes crossed........that the interview goes well for you !!!

BarbA........Wishing you strength during this stressful time with your Mom. <healing vibes> coming your Mom's way !!!!

Well........not much else is new..........so I best sign off for now.

Karen

[BarbA]

Gosh darn it i am struggling so bad right now.
All i wanted to do, after dropping th ekids off at soccer practice, was to drive thru a drive thru (kind of an oxymoron,huh?) and order the biggest, most super sized thing there. i made myself go grocery shopping instead. Found some 2 point snack things, so if i go off the deep end, it may not do as much damage. i ate 1 2 point snack things, in the car, and 4 points of a mini snack before fixing dinner for everyone ... but still have some points left, so i'm *ok* for now.

The thing that kills me is what i know .. i KNOW that eating won't change a thing with my mom. i KNOW that eating would be trying to fill an emotional void but wouldn't actually fill it. i KNOW that i'm searching out comfort food. i KNOW that going off program big time , would only make me feel worse, more out of control and like a failure. i KNOW that in order to be THERE for my children, i have to stay OP. WHY is it so darn hard?

You guys don't need to say anything .. there isn't anything that can change what i'm going thru. It is just helpful to be able to *say* it. Thanks guys

[suzie_lightning]

(((((Barb)))))), you know what makes you a true BCBer?

It's this:


All i wanted to do, after dropping th ekids off at soccer practice, was to drive thru a drive thru (kind of an oxymoron,huh?) and order the biggest, most super sized thing there. i made myself go grocery shopping instead.
Being strong doesn't mean we don't want to. It means that even when we want to, we don't.

I am thinking of you and your mom, buddy. Please take good care of yourself. (((((hugs))))))).

[BarbA]

Oh Suzie ... now i'm crying again! But good tears this time ... thank you buddy!! :buddysmoo